Much like Kurt, I internalized everything in high school. I didn’t let people know what I was thinking or feeling because I was afraid that someone would use it against me. [My sexual] orientation was completely internal -– no one knew and if people would think of me in any other way, I would panic. I didn’t want anyone to have that hold over me. I didn’t want anyone too close to me. Where I grew up, everyone was called the f-word, everyone was called gay negatively, because that was just the worst thing you could be…. [Sometimes] I think I’m still in that mentality –- I don’t think it ever leaves you. It’s one of those traumatic high school scars that I’ll carry with me.